Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Feeling so Down
Since the start of classes, there were lots of different and new ideas arose. I had a very great learning because of the things I've encountered that made me feel both glad and lonely. I had proved lot of things in my life and by those things , I was provoked to strive harder , stand tall and continue facing the miseries in life.
Just start it on my academic learnings, I can't afford to share all those learnings I had because it's really too much. In the field of science I' ve learned lessons connected to the moving of a body and also on the uses of such kinds of chemicals. On our college algebra - lines, circles, conic sections while in Values, it's mainly about the life in the world and in AP, about the country's economy. And the most enjoyable of all was the computer time, I've learned to make a blog and now instead of friendster, I've spent most of my free times at home with my blog. There were still other more things that I've learned in my academics. But aside from those, I've also learned lessons such that problems are just challenges given to us by God to test our strength. At the end of the grading, even how sad I am for the bad result of some of my Periodical Test, I've kept myself strong and I swore to myself to make it better for the next gradings.
"It's really too hard to review." That's my major problem, it seems I can't take to review all the things we've tackled on the first grading. The lessons to be reviewed in my notebook was so thick and my time wasn't enough to review. There were still other matters to make because I've needed to rush all my projects. That's why I can't budget my time.
After the periodical test and all the results were shown, I felt so sad and down. There were lot of problems- what if's arose. It seems I didn't have the strength anymore to stand and think for what shall I do for tomorrow. I felt so nervous for my academic rank. I know my parents are expecting me to have a high rank but I really felt so helpless.
On my problem regarding the things I must review, I was so thankful because our periodical test was postponed. I rejoiced because I had an enough time already to review. I've budgeted my time for every subject and thanks to God I've reviewed all my lessons well but when a storm came, it seems my mind was also destroyed by the storm.
Tssssk!!!!!! I really felt so mad on the scores I had on MAPEH, TLE and Chemistry. But I told myself....... " Never give up, just stay strong because it's not every moment, we won, there are moments of down so just strive harder and better luck next time."
Moving on I will stay strong, I'll never give up and strongly face all my problems. Whatever problems that will come again. I will do my very best. I know God ill always guide me in living everyday. Even how sad and down my life now and there are possibilities that my rank will go down, I still believe that I can do it. I'll do better in this grading and the consecutive periods. I'll do everything that I can to achieve one of my dreams, to be at the top 5 overall again when I'll graduate in high school. I don't want my parents to be disappointed on me, I want them to be proud of me telling proudly to the crowd, "that's our child."
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