Friday, January 23, 2009
In An Apprehensive Mode
Wanna know why am I feeling so restless???Let me share it then......
The third grading period had been a very hectic episode on me, assortment of things have given to me to do. Seems I have no time anymore to do the things I usually do with my companions. I've always been so busy doing school activities. There were times I couldn't attend my classes 'coz I was intended to do this and that, and more. Haay, a thought- provoking moment. I'm always asking myself, what if??? Lot of what if's arose on my mind just like the thought of being removed on the top rankers. I don't know what to do and I don't want my parents to blame anyone if ever this will happen. Just the thought that I'll have a lower rank by this time, oh, I'm feeling an intense ashame to my parents. I know they have much expectations on me and I don't want to disappoint them. I'm always striving hard just to make them proud of me as their child. And I don't want to waste all these...........
I'm really feeling so worried regarding my rank, so what I've just did, before our periodical examination, I've prepared myself, review, review, review.It turned my head over heels. I've thought that maybe I could still cope up through our examination. I've sacrificed sleeping so late again just to review all my notes. I've prayed and wished for high scores in all our subjects, maybe if ever I'll get high scores, at least I could manage to attain the grades I'm looking for.
So hard to imagine what will probably happen to me if ever those things I'm afraid of will happen. The expression of my mother and how about papa? I'm really feeling so apprehensive.I hope I've got high scores in all our subjects, especially the subjects in which I've missed a lot.
One more grading period, then it's already our graduation. Time is really running so fast, I couldn't imagine I'll graduate already in high school and soon enter the next episode of my life, the college life. But for now, I'm doing my very best to attain my graduation goal...... That's to have a high rank, to graduate as a top honor student...... to be one of the top 5 rankers of science class. It's a great pleasure on me if ever that thing will probably happen.
The third grading period had been a very hectic episode on me, assortment of things have given to me to do. Seems I have no time anymore to do the things I usually do with my companions. I've always been so busy doing school activities. There were times I couldn't attend my classes 'coz I was intended to do this and that, and more. Haay, a thought- provoking moment. I'm always asking myself, what if??? Lot of what if's arose on my mind just like the thought of being removed on the top rankers. I don't know what to do and I don't want my parents to blame anyone if ever this will happen. Just the thought that I'll have a lower rank by this time, oh, I'm feeling an intense ashame to my parents. I know they have much expectations on me and I don't want to disappoint them. I'm always striving hard just to make them proud of me as their child. And I don't want to waste all these...........
I'm really feeling so worried regarding my rank, so what I've just did, before our periodical examination, I've prepared myself, review, review, review.It turned my head over heels. I've thought that maybe I could still cope up through our examination. I've sacrificed sleeping so late again just to review all my notes. I've prayed and wished for high scores in all our subjects, maybe if ever I'll get high scores, at least I could manage to attain the grades I'm looking for.
So hard to imagine what will probably happen to me if ever those things I'm afraid of will happen. The expression of my mother and how about papa? I'm really feeling so apprehensive.I hope I've got high scores in all our subjects, especially the subjects in which I've missed a lot.
One more grading period, then it's already our graduation. Time is really running so fast, I couldn't imagine I'll graduate already in high school and soon enter the next episode of my life, the college life. But for now, I'm doing my very best to attain my graduation goal...... That's to have a high rank, to graduate as a top honor student...... to be one of the top 5 rankers of science class. It's a great pleasure on me if ever that thing will probably happen.
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